I’m very sorry to hear this. I agree with GL above – first ask yourself what does a healthy relationship look like to you? Then ask yourself are you getting these things from him, and also ask yourself why exactly is it that you love him so much? If it’s because of the time you’ve clocked, comfort, or fear – those are all the wrong reasons to stay when you’re feeling as miserable s you are on a daily basis. And thinking of your child – I grew up in a very volatile household with parents who fought all the time – it did not serve me well. I am SO much happier and so are they, now that they’ve divorced (10 years now). Best of luck <3