I learnt from a very young age that trusting people was a fools errand; i was only friends with the people at school because i had to be, unfortunately it took me till 2nd year of uni to realise that and then adopt the “fuck it all” attitude towards them and basically have the motto of “If they don’t wanna help me out in my times of need even when my times of need might be no where near as bad as theirs; then i have no need for them”

There is always someone worse off than you; i learnt that, however that doesn’t give people the right to throw that in your face just because i may have it better than them doesn’t mean i don’t go through troubles. I actually had one of these aforementioned school friends tell me “You’ve got nothing to be depressed about”

Oh ok let me just flick the switch off for depression and while i at it i’ll cut out the part of my brain that deals with self image shall i … what makes this funny is that the person in question also was going through something very similar to me just on a different scale (She was from a worser background than me)

So after that i learnt to rely on only myself and that people were only friends till the opportunity arose to stab them in the back with a prank or something

To this level yes, i’ve been lied to before but i learnt to deal with that as life; this was the first women i ever loved and likewise she was the first person i ever trusted (I had trust issues from being bullied a lot, since this situation i’ve lost all trust (for the most part) in people in general not just women) and she was also the first person to use me like that