Hi Veronica,
I am truly happy that you are thinking in the right direction. You mentioned that you used to meditate. Your mind drags you one direction and you try to bring it back to normal. Life is the same. Job is least of the things you have to worry about. You will get a life of information over internet. Always see the part of life that we were lucky to have and try to fill in the rest of the puzzle. Keep us posted.