Dear Anita

I wish I would find new people to fill my life but Where do I find this new someone. I don’t even know where to begin. I have been so busy taking care of others and their needs that I’ve put my life on the back burner. I work most of the time because I have to make sure that I can support people, where do I start to reintegrate into society again.

Yashoda

I guess this hope is hope that I’m clinging onto, the hope that I had for sharing my life with someone, the hope of having children, the hope of having a family of my own, people that I knew I could count on. Is there something wrong  with me that even after this man hurt me so much I still think he loves me. There had to be something wrong with me to still think that this man will make me happy. I am so mad at my self that I am so desperate that I am prepared to still talk to this man, to still think about this man. He makes no time for me and yet I give him my time. What is wrong with me, what is wrong with me. I hold on because I think that no one else will even look my way and then for sure I will never have a chance at happiness. What is wrong with me. Why don’t I have any self respect left. I hate myself for behaving like this

Hi Anita

Sorry for the late reply.

He moved out of the apartment he shared with the mother of his child into another apartment that is 5 mins away from  theirs. He goes to see his child straight after work every day at the their apartment. Whenever he is with his child, the mother is always there. He takes the mother along with him to all family gatherings. He has never made any effort to be able to do things with his child alone.

Yashoda