Totally know what you mean about not being able to put into words the connection. I have that too, when we text/e-mail it is all very bland but when we are together there is an energy flowing between us that is on another level that the logical, conscious mind can’t comprehend. My situation very different as we are both married and I can’t have him at all but I won’t walk away because there is a reason people are bought into your life and it may be to teach us a lesson, be there for us during a hard time, it could even be that we were together in a previous life and it is simply ‘recognition’ on a very deep level. You really need to just hang in there …. he is in your life for a reason and you won’t be branded a home wreaker, at the risk of sounding blasé, he is not married and there are no children involved. You are both adults and you can and probably will have many relationships before you settle down. Just out of interest have you ever mentioned having a boyfriend in front of him? If so how did he react, does he seem put out if you are chatting to other men?