Dear Sarina,
You have done all you can with this person, and now trying to apologize or restart the relationship would fail you. It’s okay to feel guilty, but at the same time, forgive yourself- you may not feel as if you have any reason to but that is precisely why you’ve got to do it.

We all screw up, and just about everyone understands that. Your ex does as well and probably has forgiven you, but can’t let you in again.

This is an opportunity! Part of loving yourself is finding forgiveness for yourself. Show your self-love, come to terms with the end of this relationship and what you have learned.

You’re worth the peace <3