I am so late for this ain’t I, like 8 years almost l don’t even know if u will be able to relate or not as I am completely different generation though I am hoping u probably would have found any solution to this Ashely, did u ever formed friendships again? Are u currently in a friendship, idk where to start from, I am person who forms great bonds with ppl I also have formed deep real connective friendships with PPL and at the end I always felt that they were toxic for me or I needed a rest or space from them. This has repeated for 3 times aldredy and the 4th friendship is in progress,ik 3 and 4 are very small numbers but this are legit heartbreaks in 16yr olds life the recovery from this broken friendship was always so so hard and only ik it. But this time it’s serious it’s my friendship with a girl who has been with me for past 4 years now. 4 years is a big deal it also covers my teenage where I grew with her i can call her my childhood friend. So she has been toxic for me since like a year now, it’s been a year since we are having this crisis.

My confusions are only that

1. She ain’t always toxic it’s just when we fight,

which we do pretty often but then we are normal but the things we say to each other amid this, they stay with us forever. So are They just normal fights or is she really toxic

2. How and why is it I always find ppl toxic, why can’t I have friendships lasting long or forever, is there any problem in me, what improvements I must make in myself Ashley?

Why I am I unable to form long and forever bonds with ppl. Does this means I am never gonna have anything forever?

Hope u can help Ashley.