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  • in reply to: Passing clouds #444950
    Zenith
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    Thanks for your reply Anita!

    You are right I am having a hard time regulating my emotions but I am trying my best. I am trying my best to pause before I react angrily.

    I even brought a book which talks about all the feelings/emotions last week. She keeps reading only one book.

    I already told her these books will help our family to regulate our emotions.

    I expect perfection from her and its hard to accept her imperfections I guess.

    in reply to: Passing clouds #444916
    Zenith
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    Thanks for lending me your ear Anita.
    My husband says I am way too strict.
    I am gonna keep writing how I feel and what my expectations are from my kid and you tell if its too much.

    I expect her to wake up on time. She goes to bed by 8.30 to 9.00 PM. I expect her to wake up by 7 now I changed it to 7.15 so that we can get ready and start by 7.45.-She throws fit most of the times until and unless something exciting happening at the school that day.
    The school she is going to right now is 20 min away from home. So its like one hour commute and she said she is getting tired. So we applied to the same school but at a different location which is only 10min away.

    I expect her to clean her room on every Saturday as its a clean up day in our home. She says its boring and mundane. When I ask her to put the toys back in her room, she used tell me to throw them in trash. I told her its not okay and she is wasting our hard earned money. Too many toys too much responsibility so lets keep it simple. we stopped buying toys altogether. I told her I would buy her only on certain occasions. Like Ramadan/her birthday. She still throws a fit but she is getting good at it. Also, when i invite her friends for play date i expect her to clean it up as its a team work. I set the play date and you clean up you toys. She says its boring and throws a fit again.

    I expect her to eat dinner. When it comes to lunch we cook according to her preference whatever she eats like pasta, chicken nuggets, fish. But when it comes to dinner its always indian food. She throws a fit again saying its too spicy. I have toned down the spice levels for her. She doesnt taste it and says its spicy. It angers me when she wastes the food. I add hell lot of ghee in her rice to make it bland. Dinner time is a big struggle.

    I always tell her to wash her hands when she comes home from school and put the lunch box in sink. Just to teach her responsibility. This is another struggle.

    I expect her not to touch my things but she does it and broke my things in the past and one recently.

    I expect her to be polite with me. She is getting frustrated now a days.

    in reply to: Passing clouds #444909
    Zenith
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    She lacks respect towards us.

    in reply to: Passing clouds #444908
    Zenith
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    I did read your story on the thread. Yeah me too. I suppressed my needs/emotions as a kid as my parents never had the financial capacity/emotional maturity to meet our needs.

    I always tell her its ok to be sad, upset, angry and use better words to express.

    She has a hard time taking NO. My husband tells me that we are way too strict. I dont think so.

    I am sorry I am just ranting. Its been a long time since i ranted here. This has been giving me headache since last night.

    in reply to: Passing clouds #444905
    Zenith
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    Thanks for your encouragement Anita. I started walking since last week but then I stopped as my periods started.
    I am trying my best. My little one is giving me a tough time. I remember I told you the same thing during last year at this same time. Its been overwhelming and i couldnt stop crying since yesterday night.
    She’s becoming extremely stubborn day by day. I am trying best not to angry or yell at her.
    She goes to bed by 8.30-9pm but doesnt wake up in the morning. Its a struggle. Most of the days she throws a fit.
    No matter how much we do its never enough for her. She keeps saying mean things like we are not fun or boring.
    My daughter is obsessed with my neighbors daughter lets call her T . I hate it. I kept my ego aside and I am still maintaning friendly relationship with my neighbor for the sake of my daughter. Like I said before, since last year my neighbor became extremely busy with her other set of friends. She used to say no when we used to invite her when we went out. My daughter used to tell me that I am lying all the time and other mean things.
    During Ramadan, we didnt go out much as my husband was fasting. I took her to carnival/fair last Saturday and we had great time.
    We came back home tired then she started asking about T. I told her they went to egg hunt. She started crying saying mean things like you are guys are not fun I wish I had gone to egg hunt with T blah blah and I told her politely not to say mean things when you are upset. Then I sent her to Ts house inspite of saying no as they had friends coming over to thier house. But still she went and had played with her for 7 hrs. I told her to come home and then she started throwing a fit and gave me an attitude. She did the same thing when I sent her to the Ts house last week. She came home and started crying and yelling. I got frustrated and yelled too because she did the same thing last week. I gave her a consequence this time that she is not allowed to go to Ts house for atleast a month which she agreed to.
    She behaved nicely after then it lasted till Monday.
    Since my blood sugar was elevated and doctor advised me for exercise. I have been asking my husband to accompany me for walking starting this week.
    My neighbors also go for walk in the evening. Since she stays home and doesn’t work. She cooks early and they finish the dinner by 7.30.They invited us to join for walk on Monday at 7.30. I didnt eat my dinner but still tagged along my husband and kiddo but i came back very tired as I didnt eat my dinner early.
    Yesterday I told my husband that we will go for at 8pm after finishing dinner. He agreed to it. As i go to office everyday and come back at 5. I relax for one hour. But since I thought of going out for walk , I started cooking at 5.30 and i was able to finish cooking by 7.30. So, i thought we will eat and go for walk at 8pm. In the mean while my neighbor called us they are going for a walk when my husband and daughter were in car. My husband called me I said we cant go at 7.30 but will go by 8.Then my little one starts throwing a fit again that she wants to go walk with T.My husband asked if its doable at at 8pm. They said no as T bath time is 8-9pm. I wish they could give bath to her before 8pm. My neighbor is pretty adamant when it comes these things related to hygiene. My little one refused to go on a walk and we stayed home. I felt bad we cant we do simple things because of her. she has a say in everything we do and I hate it. Even going to restaurant is big struggle she likes the bland food we like indian food.
    It makes me feel like I lost my freedom and sometimes its hard for me.
    She damages things and splashes water all around the countertops.
    We do listen to her and buy what she wants and I expect her to listen to me. We both are emotionally available to her. She disobeys all the time and I am getting frustrated/angry.
    May be I am not capable enough for parenting because of my childhood trauma.

    in reply to: Passing clouds #444876
    Zenith
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    Hi Anita,
    Thanks for checking on me.Somedays I feel better other days I still feel fatigued.
    I got my blood work done and got the result two weeks ago.
    My blood sugar levels are in pre diabetic range. My anxiety started and I kept thinking about it for two weeks lol.
    Since last year due to fatigue I started eating more. Ate candy everyday 🙁 Ate too much of processed food(snacks). I cut out sugar and processed food since last week. I wish I could eat whatever I want. I feel so bad about it.
    My vitd and b12 are low too. My doc told me that might be causing the fatigue.
    As i have a desk job which is not very helpful when it comes to my health.
    She told me start exercising which i hate. I like walking when somebody accompanies me as time goes by too fast.
    I am not sure if I am really getting tired or dont have the motivation to exercise at all 🙁
    How do you motivate yourself to go on walks everyday.
    I started walking in 2023 then I stopped it as it was really boring. Then started going to gym but then stopped it as I didnt have the motivation to go.

    in reply to: Passing clouds #444453
    Zenith
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    Thank you Anita! You look beautiful 💙

    in reply to: Untangling Anger: How It Shapes My Actions and Life #444370
    Zenith
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    Yay! I am excited see your picture!:)

    in reply to: Passing clouds #444365
    Zenith
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    lol thanks 🙂

    in reply to: Passing clouds #444360
    Zenith
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    Ramadan started since march. I was unable to fast for the first due to extreme fatigue and there was some other health issue. I did feel guilty but i let go(my religious OCD doesnt spare me). Then my periods started so I couldnt fast the second week. I still had fatigue and was busy with work the third week i.e last week. I did feel guilty but I kept telling myself that I am trying my best. I fasted on Friday but I felt extremely tired end of the day. I dont feel like fasting this Ramadan but my religious OCD keeps telling me that I am not good enough. So i started since Friday. I dont feel like fasting this month at all but at the same time it makes me feel like bad Muslim. I think my religious OCD is getting the best of me since the Saturday.I have been feeling anxious about it.

    in reply to: Passing clouds #444352
    Zenith
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    Thanks for your suggestion Anita. I will look into it. Now a days I dont have the motivation to do anything. I just feel so tired. I got my blood work done to see what’s going on.

    in reply to: Passing clouds #444199
    Zenith
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    “At the same time, setting boundaries is okay! You can guide them while making sure they feel safe and heard. It’s all about striking that balance and creating an environment where they can talk to you without fear of judgment. But I think it’s also important to remember that as a parent, you have a strong influence on shaping your child’s values and decision-making. By encouraging open communication, teaching her about consequences, and modeling the behaviors you want to see, you can help them navigate these challenges.”
    -This is spot on. This is what my husband told me when I had the same discussion with him. He is so emotionally mature than me. I still do get angry with her when she makes mistakes like wasting food, ignores or gives me an attitude, doesnt listen to me.I try my best but its hard sometimes. I am not sure where to draw the line sometimes.

    in reply to: Passing clouds #444194
    Zenith
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    I dont want to be a very strict parent but at the same time I dont want to let loose.

    I think about too much about everything but then I feel so lost.

    I have come across reddit group about indian kids brought up in America rant about their Indian parents like they are so strict.
    They dont get to wear what they want or drink alcohol/ do drugs but they get to do it when they leave to college. I have also seen comment from a kid where he left his religion because they were so strict. How do they dont fit in with thier peers because they dont drink. Some even stop talking to thier parents.

    My parents weren’t that religious but my peers used to scare me that if I dont obey GOD he will send me to hell. That has really impacted me when I became an adult. It has haunted for me years and still haunts me. Sometimes I feel like I cant be myself and at the same time the fear has helped me to stay from alcohol/drugs. I feel like I dont want to scare my kid in that away. I want her to stay away from the things that I dont like. Like wearing clothes which exposes thier body parts, drinking alcohol, hook ups and all these things. I dont know how to do that without scaring her. I feeling like moving back to India.

    in reply to: Passing clouds #444190
    Zenith
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    Hey Anita,

    I want to talk about something thats going on my mind right now.

    I was looking at sudhiksha konankis missing case. That made me scared about my little ones future. I dont like somethings about american culture especially sex(hook up culture), alcohol and drugs. Why cant people have a social life without drinking. I know I was brought up in a very conservative way but looking at all these incidents made me worry about my kids future.
    I have also seen so my DUI cases online where people killed other people under influence and how some of the parents neglected thier kids because of alcohol and drugs. Why is it so common in US ? I know I am no one to judge. I cant imagine my kid doing all these things.

    in reply to: Passing clouds #444071
    Zenith
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    Thank you for sharing your experience Anita! I have been eating healthy food and I am feeling better. Then I go down hill. Its hard to keep up with the diet. For its mostly the SPICY food that triggers my gut.

    I have been working remote once a week. I feel like my ocd/anxiety acting up on these days. I feel good when I go to office as I am surrounded by people.

    I feel like I dont like my own company or staying alone because of this anxiety.

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