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I started feeling anxious the moment i entered home. I was always surrounded by family members in India so its so quiet and depressing here. My brain started telling me that i felt less anxious in India and its more lonely here. So I am worried about if I should settle here or go back to India and take care of my parents. How will i survive this anxiety when i get old ? I am in my mid thirties lol. My brain started getting worried about future.
ZenithParticipantMy brain is in fight mode.
ZenithParticipantI am getting used to it. But my anxiety is acting up.
ZenithParticipantYeah, I know. I felt so grateful when I was in India. There was lot of traffic in India. Some of my school friends were complaining about how thier husbands and in laws were treating them. There is no work life balance. It was chaotic. But when i came back to us i started missing my family.
ZenithParticipantLol. You said it right. I used to get annoyed sometimes due to lack of personal space. But you feel less lonely when you have anxiety.
ZenithParticipantI wouldn’t say lonely but its so quiet in here. In india you are always surrounded by family or neighbors.
ZenithParticipantI felt so safe in my home inspite of my ocd getting triggered during certain times.
ZenithParticipantIt was good and relaxing. I miss my family (MOM & AUNT). My mom treated me like a kid again by cooking my favorite dishes for me, doing laundry and many other things. I miss her the most. I kinda feel lonely here.
ZenithParticipantHey Anita.. I am back to US. I feel so homesick right now. How are you doing ?
ZenithParticipantI am still in India and will be back on July 26th.Its going good so far.
ZenithParticipantHey Anita! How are you doing ?
ZenithParticipantI did talk back to ocd instead of running away from it.But the voice in my head still persists.Its making me anxious amd hard to sleep through it.
ZenithParticipantI always felt less anxious at my mothers place but now i dont have the peace of mind.
ZenithParticipantIts quite cheap in India and also I have my in laws to take care of the kid.You are right the drug made fall asleep faster lol.Its been two weeks since I am in India and was excited to meet my mother.It just triggered my religious OCD.Everybody in my family are more religious and ocd is telling me that i am a bad muslim.This theme sucks.I have been living with it for the past few years and it just sucks.
ZenithParticipantI have a colonoscopy today. I am bit worried how will to go. :(. I am trying to stay calm but its overwhelming.
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