Thats not going to happen Anita. I have to learn to let go of people who dont care my about feelings.

Sometimes I want to relocate to a different house so that I dont think about her anymore. It will feels like a friendship breakup which hit me hard this time. I had 2 friends who ignored me like this in the past few years I got over them. I dont know why this one feels tough. I have only one friend left in the city. I dont trust her anymore I know she would do the same. I just dont want anymore friends. My husband is only my best friend that I trust now. He is the best and I love him. I am spending more time with my daughter and husband. But sometimes I feel so empty that we are just 3 of us and dont have friends to hang out with. That feeling is so weird. Then I look at social media and feel bad that how come people have so many friends.

Thats nice.

Hey Anita! How is it going?

Yep.

I was angry with my neighbor first on how she left me. Later on I realized that I am trying to play victim here. I dont want to blame her now for the distance. I have accepted the fact people change over time. Its up to her to decide whom she want to spend time with.

Its makes me anxious. I had one friend in the past before she started getting close to others then I moved on. But still I was nice to her and we stayed in touch. She couldnt take it when I started getting close to others. She blamed me and started gossiping about me in front of others. The “others” would come and ask me about how I am ignoring her. That was hell lot of drama to deal with. I would get anxious that why would she do this to me. She is the one who got busy others and started telling everybody that I ignored her. If I do the same thing now, I fear my current neighbor would the same. I hate all the drama.

I love that prayer and I use it everyday. I am extremely stressed about this friendship. I keep going back and forth. My friend texted me today as reply for the message that I sent on Thursday. It looks like she archived my chat we have this feature on WhatsApp where you can archive the chats into separate folder so that you wont able to see thier messages. I cried on Friday like how she ignored my message. Its pretty clear that she is ignoring me now  as I told ger to stop expecting from me. I kept my ego aside, I planned a kids play date  to  go for  pumpkin patch with her on Saturday and I texted her on Thursday. Today she texted me saying that the other group already planned on Wednesday so she went with them on Sunday. The other thing she told me was her husband told my husband that as they are busy on Saturday we can go together  on Tuesday. My little one has a class on Tuesday  so we went on Saturday. As my little one gets bored on the weekends. I want to leave this friendship but I just keep going back and forth like an idiot. I dont know I feel like I cant take thier rejection anymore. On top of that she is ignoring my texts now. Now its pretty clear that they are busy with other group during the weekends. During our conversation, she did not agree with that instead she blamed me that I wasnt planning early and she told me that she is pretty busy during the weekdays. Now I planned early she said no and  they are planned on the weekdays. I want to cut this off. I  want to stop asking them when we go out. I want go out and make new friends. But I am unable to move on as I am scared she would blame me if i move on. She already blamed me for not texting. I am scared she would blame if i stop asking her or texting her.