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thanks a lot anita;) i feel andrew and i have a lot in common as we both love science, nature, first aid. we often share the same ideas in science, but at other times we have differing views such as with advertisement in the economy, i see it as a positive way to spread the world to a capitalistic market, he sees it as a distraction and also sometimes it can lead to impulsive buying. he tends to know more about mechanical science (gears, pulleys, machines) and field biology (plants and wildlife) electrical (computers, radios, graphing calculators), while i know more about environmental, biological, chemical, religious, forensics (codes, chromatography). i remember a time when i asked him who would when if we had a science competition and he right aways said confidently that he would win. i admire his confidence and his laid back nature and its great to have someone who i can talk to about science, but it can be annoying b/c at times when we compete he seems so self-assured of his knowledge that i feel my intelligence diminished. my parents are also mechanical minded and my brother does mechanical engineering so i often fell like i don’t fit in my family. i am the one who wants to be a medical researcher and help people be more spiritually fulfilled in life and i’m not very mechanical minded. however, my family often pushes me there or at times they tell me that i won’t be good at genetic engineering b/c of this reason. i remember a time when i was telling dave that i would probably never have a relationship in my life b/c i was quite shy and quite strong-willed independent and i always am studying school work. dave said that i was smart and pretty and i would have a relationship. meanwhile andrew was listening and he laughed. he told me that he was the same way in that he enjoys studying a lot. andrew made me laugh by telling me the story of one time when he brought a date to dinner and he decided to talk about electronics to her. he went out to his car to get an electronic radio and started playing around with it and he forgot about his date. this was the only relationship he ever had and it didn’t last, but andrew didn’t really mind. i feel like i am like andrew in the way that i am independent, not much of a romantic and very focused in school and learning things. this is probably why when my special friend wants to be my boyfriend, it wouldn’t work b/c i’m too shy and quite focused on school. i feel like in a relationship, i would also talk mostly about school and sports. also andrew enjoys debating and we often debate about school topics. andrew and i both enjoy playing lacrosse as well.