Dear kl292:

By reading your last paragraph, it is clear to me that there is something I am clear about that you don’t understand: you have nothing to apologize for. You sending the box to the person was not an act of immaturity. Of these things I am sure and have been certain about from the first time I read your thread.

When you were involved in the organization, you had a sense of power for the first time in your life by that point. You had power, power over what do with a material resource- that box. You felt guilty and still do, for not giving it to your parents.

I understand you are currently unemployed. Were you employed in the past? If you were and earned money, did you give it to your parents? Are you planning on handing them future paycheck as payback… for all they materially gave you?

anita