Just a little update. As usual, the girl whom i mentioned i went on a date with before, her texts are now coming very slowly. It had been fast the past few days, now its just waiting for hours to get a reply from her.

Its has always been like this, people will start to talk to me at first, and then it will just slowly dies off. I thought we were talking fine, but i just dont have a clue why this happens to me all the time, she isnt the first, neither would she be the last.

Of course, at first the anxiety wasnt there as i was controlling it. But now, the same old thoughts always comes into my head ” Am i doing something wrong?” “Does she find me boring ?” so on so on. I cant help it, not when it happens too many times before, its like i been scarred.