She uses “getting the cops involved” as leverage, either to intimidate scare or control me or keep me doing what she says, at least tats hw I interpret it.
Back in2010 we had a domestic dispute that resulted in a no violent contact order as in if I get violent to her im arrested etc.
She stirs things up with cops.. she buffed the othr night and told them my friend who was gnna help me had guns and threatened to hurt us. Th He refore isolating me, even though she lied. Shes not above lying and manipulation to serve her self. She can tell the cops I stole from her, which shes dne before, which is BS. She can say I was violent, that I am deserting the marriage when shes disabled, oh boy she can say whatever she wants and theyll go along and believe her. She can paint me into a corner. That is available my fear… that I will have a trail of “her” following me wherever I go. Im scared and she is a complete liar yet she calls me a liar because I dont cook dinner when I say I will.
This is the absurdity of things. It feels like I have to go along with this plan “A” or I will have trouble follow me.
I just want to be free and feel at ease and live a new life, im not living.. im existing, its deprssing.
yet im to blame always Because her health is in jeopardy and im not caring, im being selfish