Wow, that’s a really good way to describe it, and honestly I hate to admit it but I think you are correct all around. Ts very hard to admit it to myself because I’m not this “kind of person”

Yes I havd benefits staying ike my TV stuff aundry tv music internet food a nice bed etc, but im certainly nOT living or c challenging myself. Time is a going by.
I could say I’m comfortable and its not “soooo bad”
But like you said, the leopard cannot change its spots.
And yes, im blamed for everythingggg
So I start to doubt my ownself identity self eorth confidence all that..
Soo what is a solution if I am fearing just leaving period.
I could walk out the door right now, but what about what will happen. ? Is she going to hurt me? Is it worth th risk?
What is yur other thoughts