sometimes i feel as if i should just follow the model “don’t think, just act.” sometimes my thoughts of fear and negativity seem to swirl around me and i just push them down, i am no longer going to allow myself to be controlled by them. sometimes when i feel myself in fear, i take a second to realize all the talents i have and go for it and let go of those limiting thoughts. sometimes it is good to just focus on the wings of angels lifting me helping me be confident, feeling the wind blow my hair back and experiencing the freedom of my soul and suppressing the fear. i tell myself that fear only holds me back and the bitter hearts of the world would only want that when i could be free to experience the power of what it truly feels to be alive. even though i am fiercely independent and self-sufficient, i think when i am older i will raise a family and i will teach my daughter or son how to be confident, to raise their heads high and to enjoy the beauty of life. i have begun to do yoga and take a dance class and it is fun and the instructor helps me truly realize the power and strength of women. i hope i can teach my daughter to appreciate herself as well. these days it is like a glass pane stands between me and this world and i have begun to focus more within, i have unearthed the dark parts of me that make me restless, but i have learned to bring them to the light and heal. all the strong emotions of hate, fear, love seem to be controlled as i journey within and experience self-discovery, all i feel is a sense of contentment and detachment from myself as i am learning more about the divine within me. i don’t care what path i take in life as long as i find spiritual fulfillment and i realize i have found some guidance in my dreams. i have been receiving dreams of science and math, the earth heart-shaped and filled with light. i think i know what my purpose in life is now.