it has rained a lot this summer and i like the cool temperature and often times there are breathtaking rainbows and beautiful twilight skies. i agree with what you said about age, sometimes i feel like our society has become so concerned in beauty, athleticism and wealth that those who can’t make it or are elderly are cast out like their not much. i like helping people and enjoy helping the elderly with crafts to brighten themselves up. i feel like the elderly and the youth have stories to tell us if people listen, also people shouldn’t just put on false facades just to please others, they should be happy with themselves no matter what age they are. no matter how young or old we have something special to contribute to society. i am working on being less critical of myself and it is working, i have been meditating on myself being healed and entering into the void of the divine and i feel much better about myself. there is one thing i am working on which is forgiveness, my mom is the more criticizing parent and i don’t want to be like her. she lets herself be controlled by stress and often doesn’t work out and keep healthy at times even though i ask her to. she is always complaining about how people wrong her and how her life isn’t what she wants when she could work on changing her attitude and help build a healthy workout and stress reducing routine. i think i am criticizing of myself, but have become more accepting of myself and realize that i am special and not at all like her. i don’t think i want to ever be like her or look like her. i will be healthy, happy, accepting and loving and most of all i won’t let my stress get in the way. most of the time when i’m stressed, i write about my feelings, work out or spend time in nature and just let the anger go. i went running with my special friend 7/3/16 and when i asked him if i was a good person. he hugged me and said that i was a good person and always good enough. when i told him that i was afraid of becoming like my mom he said you are not like her, you have beautiful dreams and you are loving and compassionate. you are more free-spirited than she is. i will help you heal yourself and realize your true worth. you are a beautiful soul and there is no one that i could share so much spiritual love with. when i was still doubtful he told me that i shouldn’t be so criticizing of myself, i was perfect and he said i reminded him of jillian michaels (she is a very outspoken body builder). he also said that he believed in me and if there was one person who was a divine being, it would be me and that i wasn’t like my mom since i was more beautiful and compassionate. he told me that it didn’t matter whatever happened he would keep the spiritual love between us and when we were both around each other we would help each other appreciate the divine within ourselves. he made me cry with his words as he held me and i realized things would be okay and that i was more special than i thought i was.