thanks a lot anita;) i feel like i have become quite detached from the world when someone is angry, i just look at them with a detachment like i don’t care. people spend so much time rushing and letting anger get to them as the seconds of life pass them by when they could be reflecting on how to make themselves better or cultivate more positive thoughts. i know my detachment and optimism annoys some people as i also have begun to develop a solid self-assurance that doesn’t care what others think of me. some people think my detachment means i’m being cynical, aloof in my own world or just too optimistic, but i believe that life is a dance and that even without music, the wings of the soul shouldn’t be caged. a lot of my policy is just to let things go and expect disappointments and just let them go, don’t let them tie you down from experiencing the beauty of what life is meant to be, one of adventure and compassion. the meditations i do keep stress under control and i have seen an improvement in my mental clarity (i have also developed a stronger intuition) and they have given me a sense of vibrancy, a sense of being and power that i seem to emanate. also i no longer fight the dark parts of me, but i allow them to be as i balance them with aspects of light, everyone has a little of gray in them and that balance is what is right. we only need to let the lighter parts of our selves shine, in every star there is a yearning to be massive and powerful to become a black hole (i love science) to suck everything even light in, but i want to live my life in the void of light and it doesn’t matter how massive (how much fame, athleticism, etc.) i have, what matters is that i embrace the person i am who is healthy and happy. i find that i don’t worry about my weight anymore, i just eat healthy and tell myself “it doesn’t matter if they don’t like me, for i am my own self, a divine being and i am happy.” the positive thinking has helped me tone my body and i am quite happy with myself, there is still an inner critic but it is less abusive and most of the time when it seems to sneak up on me to become an inner bully, i don’t let it.
the troubles of the world don’t affect me anymore and i will only listen to the wings of my soul.