Dear kirstyd:

No, I am not at all part of the team that runs this site. I am very much a member here, just like you. And there is no requirement on my part that you read my past posts. There are so many, it will be a major undertaking. What I was trying to convey to you is that I was always authentic here, and I am not the same person I was a year ago. But all through all the factual info I shared about me, including my first name are correct. I treated this site as an opportunity to learn and heal and it is working for me. I hope it does for you too.

I thought about your share about your anxiety from yesterday, and I realize, thanks to your share, that I am more anxious than I thought I was in the present. We can only compare what we experience by what we experienced before. So even though I am not that very anxious, I am anxious enough, more than I would like to be. This is something I learned over time: the more you work on something, the more you become aware of the MORE than needs to be attended to and worked on. This is why I call the patience required in this work Excruciating Patience.

I also learned that there is no such thing as a Small Step when you heal, every step is as meaningful as long as it is a step you take on the healing path.

anita