Thanks again everyone for the input.
A bit of better news. I believe I figured out the cause of my work anxiety. Seems it was the memory of a very upsetting incident while working for my father around 20 years ago.

We got into a huge argument and at one point he said either get back to work or get out. I had a family to support, it was a hard decision, but I could take no more and left. I did not speak to my father for a year!

I was reading somewhere that you should recall painful incidents in the past, think about them then, address your feelings and move on. Amazingly that seemed to work.

That being said, I still have most of my original problem of not liking work, and yes it’s a lot to do with my co workers and my feeling that I don’t have control of my situation. Elizabeth, you’re right, I am burned out and tired.

I would love to have my own business, but there are many issues I have with that. Maybe if I could be mentored through the process it would help?
I’m scared to borrow any money. To me, that feels like committing myself to many more years of work (because I lack confidence my business would succeed?) I don’t know how to “run” a business when it comes to things like taxes, becoming an LLC, insurance, etc… And I don’t know what type of business to start.