thanks, sometimes the inner bully really makes me mad and irritated, every time it sneaks up on me and tells me “i’m not good enough. i will never make it out in this world. you’re not smart enough.” i imagine it like it is an irritating bug that i smash with a shoe. no matter how hard it tries, it won’t control who i am anymore, it can only make me irritated at myself and then i will try to find a way to end it. sometimes when i’m making major progress in science and someone criticizes me in another field or in science, the inner bully seeks that as fuel and it starts nagging at me saying “see you’re not good enough. you can never be good enough. stop daydreaming and experimenting with science, you should do something more productive.” anyway, i looked up molecular biologist and genetic engineering and i like molecular biology and may go for a doctorate so i can study cancer and stem cells. genetic engineering may be a bit hard, but molecular biology will pave the way and andrew may be able to help me develop my technical skills. also andrew like me when it comes to science can go on researching for hours and it can be in astronomy, biology, physics, chemistry, mechanical etc and we just get more and more interested. also molecular biologists often help biotechnicians who are the ones who do the mechanical things like prostheses because they let them know about the cells that are there beforehand. we are both like the valence electrons in an atom, we will react and keep learning until we are stable and have found something that really interests us, then we’ll rest and explore. it is hard to break up chemical bonds much like it is hard to stop me when i have my focus on a goal and i won’t let the inner bully try to break my bonds by producing more H+ ions (negative thoughts) and creating more acid in my life, i’ll generate more OH- and be more basic or I could be neutral like water;) here are the two websites:

http://study.com/articles/Molecular_Biologist_Job_Description_Duties_and_Requirements.html
http://study.com/articles/Become_a_Genetic_Engineer_Education_and_Career_Roadmap.html