i think my inner bully is also making me a bit self-conscious. i am also looking forward to winter. ap biology is a bit hard and sometimes it is hard to synthesize the concepts from the reading. i am learning about glycolysis, cellular respiration and all the other ways atp can be produced and used. my inner bully seems to be irritating these days telling me that i will never be good enough to be a scientist. the essay is due on 8/16 and i still have two more chapters to get through and to organize my notes. my inner bully has been telling me that i’m ignorant, that i’m not healthy and that i shouldn’t try to do well in ap biology. for the chemical bonds essay, i received a 28/40. my inner bully has begun to take that as that i am not competent enough to be in the class. the inner bully is even worse when i’m around people b/c it will always compare me to others and say that i’m not perfect. it’s not helping me much that dave went on a nature trip while andrew is competing with me and my parents are criticizing me. the good thing is that i am making progress and whenever i do something successfully, i tell the inner bully “see i am capable of things.” it will take some time to get rid of the inner bully’s grasp, but i’m celebrating the little victories.