I feel overwhelmed by the kind replies, thank you all very much. 🙂

Thank you Miniature Bodhisattva for your encouragement and support.

Thank you Gary, for your advice. I need to print it out, and stick it on my wall to read every day. I’ve been doing exactly the opposite of everything you’ve said.. I don’t trust myself, I take everything too seriously. I’ve rejected any support or nuturing, which I think is contributing to my empty feelings. But I find it so difficult to listen when people are kind; I don’t believe they mean it. I have no faith in myself, and with my anxiety overthink everything excessively.
I’m trying to remember to live in the moment, to have faith I’ll be able to handle things, and say yes to opportunities. It’s so scary. I really hope things will start to change.

Thank you, Anita, for sharing some of your story with me. I am very glad to hear you’re doing better than you were, and are healing. I had a similar moment myself a few months ago where I first started to consider there’s nothing fundementally wrong with me — that it was actually just a feeling. I said out aloud “there’s nothing wrong with me”, and sobbed afterwards. Thinking about it still makes me want to cry, it feels unreal. I seem to be trying to sabotage myself, telling myself there is something wrong with me, even though deep down I think I understand there isn’t. I don’t know how to move past sabotaging myself, it feels like the right thing to do.

It’s just this emptiness regarding myself.. I don’t know how to fill it, or what to do to feel worthy. Please could you share more of your own healing, if it isn’t too much to ask?

It makes me happy to see you’ve posted and shared, hkrg. I am sorry to hear the difficulties you’ve faced. I’m afraid I can’t offer any words of wisdom, as this is all very new to me too, and I don’t for the life of me know where to begin! But please keep talking with us on these forums. I hope you find helpful answers. ♥