I’d say that before fifth grade was quite peaceful and normal. My parents are “the typical parents” – which is how my siblings and even my cousin describe them. Maybe a little boring but they are caring and we are financially stable. The large age gap with my siblings made it hard for me to be close with them, but I was never scared of them until after fifth grade. I became scared because I generalized them to my peers, I generalized them to a group of “young-ish teenaged or young-adult-minded people” who seemed to be “cool” and have certain expectations from socializing. However, it’s a lot better now, because my confidence increased after starting college. But I guess there is still a residual anxiety when it comes to talking to one of my sisters. The other sister is fine however, we are like buddies. The other sibling is a brother who lives in the US right now.

I have happy childhood memories. It seems “too normal” that I don’t have anything notable to say about it. If asked, I can name some various memories but that might take too long again. A lot of them are mundane, some of them are amusing and nice to remember.

I’d say internet addiction after 5th grade delayed my healing, however I did grow a lot in other areas, particularly in brainy pursuits. And it made my perception of the world quite deep and colorful.