Thanks Mini Buddha! Wow your reply was great and made me feel better already. I know 6 months is not long but I have been on and off with this guy for 10 years and usually it is me doing the breaking up so I guess I thought it would just be easier. I love all your ideas about getting my mind off of him. I will definately try some on those. Thank you also for the AA advice. Drinking actually did cross my mind at one point. He and I quit drinking together and he has started again. I DO NOT want to go down that route. I tell myself I can overcome all of this….I have to be strong….which some days is hard. Counselling is very helpful but also expensive. I am trying to go as much as possible. It’s so nice to have a group of people to go to on here. I’m sure I will get alot of this site. I also hope in the end I can help others. I think my next step may be to get rid of social media and contact with his family. This causes alot of pain and memories that I can’t deal with right now. Thanks again for your great advice…….

Sue