Anita,
Thank you for your reply. I have learned alot from it. Yes the safety issue is big for me for sure. I feel like my mind is all over the map. Kinda like I don’t know what to do with myself. I want to do everything, try everything, move forward but I feel confused as where to start I guess. As for AA a couple of people have suggested that and I feel like that might be a good place for me to start. I have never attended a meeting. When i quit drinking is was not for myself at the time. I was supporting my ex and not until a few years ago did I finally admit that I am an alcoholic but have never received any support with it. Best decision I ever made though. I think it might be a good idea to give it a try and I can definately see how it might make me feel secure. I am a little afraid to attend a meeting on my own. Do you happen to live in BC, Canada? I am going to be honest I almost have drank a couple of times as it just seems easy to pick up a bottle and make all this pain go away but deep down I know I can’t and I really don’t want to. Thank you also for the other ideas of things to try. I have enrolled in a meditation class as I think that is something I want to get involved with. I will definately try a some of your other ideas also. I feel as though we have alot in common. I am in counselling and that is helping also. I feel as though some days things are wonderful and other days I am a wreck but things are not as bad as they were 2 months ago. I could not even go to work and had to take a leave. One other thing, what does CBT stand for? Do you finally feel safe in your own skin Anita? How long does all this take? I just want to feel better.

Hi VJ,
I will look up about EFT and give it a go and let you know what I think and if I do have any questions I will definately get back to you. Thanks for your help and support.

Sue