Hey Helleia,

I know how you feel. There are times when I feel as if I am lacking resolve and sometimes the bad habits come back. I know that I have talents in writing poetry and science and I’m sure you have talents as well. I’m still trying to figure out how I can use my talents to help others and there are times when things seem slow and I am restless because I feel like others are helping me but I’m not repaying them. I talk to few people as well since most of the time I visit Tinybuddha to post on the forums or have my nose in my studying or a book. There are times when I also feel a bit lethargic and I feel as if all I have is negative thoughts. Like monklet80 said you may be a bit too hard on yourself. I’m glad you have an ‘energy to write’, i find that whenever I feel like my resolve is weak writing about my feelings helps me bring them into focus, into the physical and find a way to resolve them. I also find that I like to do well in school b/c i like the subjects and I like to learn, but there is also an underlying factor with criticisms of my parents who want me to be perfect in a lot more things than i think i can be. i think you have a high sense of achievement in yourself and that’s a good thing, but you don’t have to be a perfectionist in academics that you forget your fun. Sometimes small achievements lead to bigger successes, so as long as you continue to work hard, you should give yourself breaks for times of fun. you can also have fun while learning such as if you are trying to memorize some text, you can compare it to a funny scenario such as if you had to memorize that Sardinia was near Italy, you could imagine sardines on an Italian pizza.