Dear arose91:

If you decide to get off the drugs, if you ever do, then do it very, very gradually while practicing the skills you learned, one hour, one day at a time, while seeing your psychiatrist to evaluate the reduction in amounts, with the psychiatrist’s support as well as maybe a competent psychotherapist and while- perhaps- being involved in a schedule of aerobic exercise, yoga and the like.

I understand fear though. If, and when you are ready.

anita