at ocean county college, they have intramural sports so i think i’m going for field hockey, chess and running. the thing about living at home is that i can work out there using my work out equipment and also it’s less costly. also community college will help me get my intro courses out of the way such as latin and economics and it’s cheaper. i’m not a procrastinator so i tend to space things out pretty well and get a head start on them so i don’t have to do many test corrections b/c i got most of it planned out and i am going to check some of the questions to make sure. i like my ap calc class b/c they are quiet, studious and helpful with the problems. i understand the work, but i do bad on the tests, but it’s only the 2nd test (i got a 71 on it) so i might just need time to adjust to the teacher’s testing style. my business/web class doesn’t seem to want to learn at times and the people all think that a subject is useless or they just are too focused on sports and games. my ap biology class is a bit dramatic, but i like science so i enjoy that class, although sometimes the classmates are a bit too dramatic. i realize that if i don’t do well on something, it won’t mean that i will fail the semester or the school year for ap classes. remember when you said that most people don’t realize they have an inner bully and most people aren’t as confident as they seem?, i think i see that with my ap biology classmates. some of them flip out after the first test and think they will do bad on the ap test which is in may a long way to go. i have realized that i have an inner bully (thanks to your help) and i don’t let it get to me. there are times when i feel down, but i’ll still think of the accomplishments that i did such as that i am doing well with my time management and have most of the work done while others haven’t. by focusing on my accomplishments and my good qualities even when i feel a bit down, i find myself feeling better about myself and it keeps the inner bully from getting into my mind and making a situation worse. one of my friends told me she thought “i was the most confident person she knew.” i will fake a smile and lie that i’m fine and sometimes i’m a good actor i’ll believe it and uplift other classmates and then we’ll all be more hopeful. i’m not really all that confident as my friend says, it depends on the environment, but her comment made me smile. my java class is too loud and i would like to learn so there are times when i read my notes and teach myself at home, the guys all talk about football much like the guys in my business/web class.