Dear Peter,

I know I may sound angry, but I had a year to process my emotions. Describing what happened, putting all this in words, is an expression of my clarity. I understand why writing this down makes me look angry – who wouldn’t be on my place.

But the fact is, this is the clarity of my conclusions of what hapenned, and I have accepted that. You should see me back then at the time this was hapenning – I was a ball of intense emotions, stress, feeling betrayed and surprised behind my back, without expecting this, without knowing why, without seeing this coming. For such long months I tried to find an explanation for myself, what have I done or said wrong to end up in this situation. I thought it was all my fault. I was seeing therapist and he repeatedly convinced me that it was not my fault, reassuring me that my reaction was normal considering the events. I didn’t believe him at the time.

I learned how to have better judgement of people, how to defend my position and my interest, how to stay alert. I learned how to better understand the situation and how to trust my own inner authority when making decisions, not be manipulated. I think this is clarity.

Right now what I know is I was about to get a job back in the company but somebody put s top on the process, so I use my diplomacy to try to win my place back. In the mean time, of course I go to other interviews. But things are hapening so slowly – I hear from employers I applied for months ago.

To be honest, I don’t know what advise I would give another person on my place…