The loss of money wouldn’t sting so badly, except for I had just purchased a new rifle at the suggestion of law enforcement that came out to about $1,900.00. A nice piece of kit, but yeesh at the combination.

Was also looking at going on a trip, but wound up bailing on that idea, and now looking at something shorter just to get out of town. Perhaps I over-reacted in response to the money thing, who knows. Amusingly, the closest way to get “out-of-town” to any significant city is to go up to Canada. It’s also much cleaner… I miss how this State used to be when I moved up here.

Just not very good at being happy I guess. Have a history of depression. I don’t usually try new things anymore because stuff always seems to be a disappointment. People generally tend to be disappointments as well. Basically, most of that which exists seems to be disappointing. Kind of at a state of apathy.