I tried therapy for several weeks and it made me feel a little better for a while. I didn’t find any real answers to my difficulties or solutions but everyone is different and it might be good for you. Talking about it to someone certainly helps unload some of the angst. Having read extensively on the problems we have both endured as victims, there seems to be a consensus of opinion that recovery takes years if you reach the stage of being in a semi constant state of fear. I guess your panic attack was a sign that you are at that point. It becomes a form of post traumatic stress disorder as a result of being in a constant state of stress for prolonged periods. For those of us who are particularly sensitive to this, it is not unlike the problems associated with people who have experienced real danger. The result of prolonged stress is always very damaging. Hopefully you are not at this point or have the personality that is better at coping with such a situation. For some it is not a problem but for more sensitive people it becomes devastating. Good luck with the weekend.