Also, I think it is sad and unfair the way that your dad has manipulated you into ignoring your own thoughts, feelings and preferences. You should be able to choose for yourself and not be his puppet. I believe you have become so used to doing what he wants that you now believe that your own wishes don’t matter or that you can learn to like things (maybe even people?) who are wrong for you. I think it is important for you to get back in touch with what you want and feel, otherwise you might wake up 20 years from now and wonder whose life you are living…