Hi Alien

Thanks, I am focusing on a new life, I’ve been to Berlin with my kids , drove to Places I wouldnt normally , I feel a lot happier .I do miss him sometimes when I think of the good times but our relationship became very destructive and I feel I needed his love to validate me as a person. Towards the end, he used that and kept with drawing himself , he dies it now still
As you and cherry blossom say I need to look after me – self preservation and cut all contact which I have done
Thanks all xxx