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i really enjoy wednesdays. even though i have a lot of work on those days, i always end up being ale to keep it organized and get it done. there is good karma on wednesdays. i am learning about product and quotient rule with derivatives in ap calc and they are relatively easy unless you are dealing with fractional exponents and radicals and you have to FOIL them. also walking to u.s. history ii, i met my special friend and we talked about our classes and we both smiled at each other. in u.s history ii today we talked about the harlem renaissance and the jazz age and it was interesting learning about the different artists involved. at lunch, my friend francine and i were laughing and having fun. storm at lunch was telling a story about trump and hillary and how both contestants weren’t good and it was quite funny. monday in our studybooks for ap biology, i was partners with alissa and keri and we were sitting next to each other (fun coincidence) and keri picked the teams. today,in ap biology alyssa, alissa, liz and i were helping each other prepare for the exam which is tomorrow. we were discussing molecules and alyssa and i were comparing notes, while alissa and liz were quizzing each other with vocab cards. i like keri, alissa, alyssa and liz because they are fun to be around, explain things well and also manage to be laid-back while also being ambitious at the same time. so i am getting the hang of alice computer programming, but i still need to work on making individual parts of objects move and aligning the camera. but i did my animation today and am relatively done, i just have to fix some things which the teacher said i can do the first 20 min of class tomorrow. i stayed after for ap calc today and the teacher explains things quite well so i understand how to use the power and product rules with fractional exponents and radicals. ray also stayed after and we were both helping each other with problems. ray is a bit like me in the way he acts like he is laid-back, but he also has a dramatic and funny side. sometimes my friends think i am very laid-back b/c they don’t see me being stressed over the tests and my notes are relatively organized, when beneath the surface i am a bit like “yipes!” although when i’m around people and i’m stressed, like ray, i tend to act it out like a play and it makes people laugh and in turn makes me laugh. this is why people think i am cool under pressure, but i’m not; i just take the pressure and let it turn into a dramatic “yipes! i’ve got five tests this week! i’m going to flip!” and in the mean time, i will flip my paper and pencil in the air to pretend i am flipping and people will laugh and that makes me feel better. ray is that way also when he is under pressure, he is like “yipes!” and he riffles through his notebook and puts his pencil through the spiral to make it vibrate and that makes people laugh also. i like your analogy to the inner bully being smashed with an M on a calculator b/c every time i use a calculator, i am going to think that;) i don’t think i’ll ever have a boyfriend b/c i am very independent and i tend to have high standards when it comes to a guy. i want someone who is a scientist (since i love science) and is good at math, knows about computers and toolworking, likes nature and camping, is a buddhist wiccan, is athletic (but not too vain with it), first aid and kind and accepting, laid-back. so i’m looking at a combination of andrew (computers, electronics, science, nature, camping, first aid, athletic), my special friend (nature, camping, higher power belief, athletic), dave (belief in angels, nature, athletic, first aid) and my dad (toolworking, athletic). andrew is very independent and easy to talk to and we share a lot of the same interests, but he likes to compete with me.