Dear Eliza,
By your words you sound like a very intelligent funny open person. I’m suprised at how young you are and how much you already know about what you want. Seeing that you were able to learn about yourself and who you are when your accident happened says a lot about your character. I’m in m late 20s and I’m still trying to figure out my purpose in life. I think it’s great that you want more of connection with someone on a deeper level. True love does exist and its out there. Its hard to find someone in this generation that wants monogamy. I think friends with benefits is more accepted in our culture and I hate it. I wouldn’t say your expecting too much, wanting better for yourself is not a bad thing. You will find the person that connects with you on that level. Don’t give up.