thanks for your comfort anita:) i really like chapter eleven about cell communication in ap biology, andrew likes chapter 44 on cell’s regulating water. cell communication is easier for me b/c i am good with molecules being transferred and chemical signals, while andrew is good at biological processes. lately we have been helping each other with our notes. he and i have a lot of the same ideas of how to approach diagrams and we often have the same format to our note-taking and we both have a good sense of humor. i need some advice on how to talk to a shy guy b/c i have a friend francine who wants to make friends with my former lunch buddy who is now in my ap calc class, but he is really shy. he doesn’t have many friends and francine feels bad for him, she really is a great friend. i asked dave today if he had any advice and he said that francine should casually approach him and talk about some topics and possibly use humor. francine says she has already tried to talk to steve and it is hard. i don’t think steve is that shy, though he helps me with my ap calc hw at times. he’s a good person who is a bit insecure at times like me. francine has a great sense of humor and dave is most likely to cheer you up or possibly andrew as well. even though, ap biology is a lot of work, it’s fun and cool to learn and working with andrew is quite fun. dave and steve are great for ap calc although i’m still learning how to calculate derivatives using the chain rule on radicals and fractional exponents or how to combine all the rules we’ve learned to solve a problem which can get quite confusing on which rule to use and where you are. i find that sometimes i end up forgetting a rule to use especially when it comes to trig, radical and fractional exponent functions. my inner bully came by in ap biology today when andrew and i were discussing cell communications and it said “see you’ll never be as smart as him.” where upon i envisioned a silver disk smashing it. it made a reappearance in java when it said “you are terrible at computers, how come you have so many mistakes? you’ll never pass this class.’ it made me really irritated, but the thing is by the end of the block, when i ran to catch my bus, i managed to imagine the inner bully being crushed under a bus and it made me laugh. i might create a song ridiculing the inner bully.
“the arms of the inner bully goes grab, grab, grab.
the arms of the inner bully goes grab,grab, grab
the arms of the inner bully try to grab me
the mind of the inner bully goes yes, yes, yes
the mind of the inner bully goes yes, yes, yes
the mind of the inner bully tries to be my mind saying things that it says are true
the voice of the inner bully says “not good enough, not good enough, not good enough” all day long
But i won’t let that inner bully grab, grab, grab
No i won’t let it grab, grab, grab
It’s arms are twigs in which i will break, break, break
It has no power to hold me in it’s clutches
For it’s arms, i will break, break, break
the mind of the inner bully tries to steer me into a crash
But I won’t crash
I’ll take control of the steering wheel
the mind of the inner bully says things are true
i press delete and turn on the music of life
the inner bully chitter chatters all day long
“Not good enough, not good enough, not good enough” it chants
i fast forward the screen, the inner bully doesn’t hold the remote to my life
i will see the images and impression i want to see
the inner bully laughs and says “break, break, break”
the inner bully says “fail, fail, fail”
what good would your actions do? ‘cuz i’m the inner bully “ha, ha,ha”
and i say “you will never shatter my spirit inner bully, begone!”
i will not tolerate your insults and curses
you are nothing, but a miserable shadow that just latches on to people
you don’t have physical form, you just lurk in the shadows waiting to be triggered
but i will pump positive ions by active transport against inner bully (biology reference here) and i will let the shattered pieces of the inner bully exit the cell through the membrane
and the inner bully says “i will take a piece of your cell membrane for my sake (exocytosis: when a cell takes a piece out of the membrane, can be helpful if there are foreign pathogens that need to be transported out of the cell) and leave you with a gaping hole in you self-esteem
and i say i will take in more positive energy to fill those holes in me so you will never win (endocytosis: when cell replenishes membrane by taking stuff in) both exocytosis and endocytosis require energy.
i will enjoy my life to the fullest without your help (funny math systems of equations, i found online that applies)
life+love=happy
+life-love=sad
_____________
2 life= Happy+Sad

Life= (Happy+Sad)/2
So, Life= 1/2 (Happy+Sad)

I will solve the x’s (times when i am cross) in life so i can find the treasure (another math analogy and also pirates marking treasure with an “x”)

“Math teaches us how to add love and minus hate. But it gives us Every reason to hope that Every problem has a solution.”

So I will work on subtracting my hate and multiplying my love.
So dear sweet bully (being sarcastic here), you will never succeed in making me x (cross) nor will you make me wonder Y
Y is getting annoyed by you asking, can’t you see i’m okay the way i am?
so, take your mental abuse to healthy students (first four words spell math) and go haunt an empty shack (hoovervilles from u.s history)
you have no room to haunt me, so begone with your problems because you’re the one who has them and i won’t help solve them
i will be having fun solving the variables in life and making the good add up

(I love math and science analogies, they are so funny:)