From your post Shipp, I can see you have insight and self-awareness already. Message boards are a good way to learn to monitor and express what is on your mind.
If I look back at some of my posts even 12 months ago, I see that I am in a slightly different space now. I didn’t have all the answers then and still don’t. My current view is that Christianity is better for my mental state than Buddhism.But I have to avoid some of the negative perspectives on Hell and damnation, to really embrace it.