Dear hummingbird9442,
thank you for taking the time to reply in such length. thank you for your congratulations, your own story and your advice. However i do not feel anxious that this could be the calm before the storm for i miss the balance of having any kind of ‘storm’. i just feel quite bored without something to work towards or a some sort of challenging emotions or thoughts. funnily enough, your recommendation of me sharing to others among the community here is something i’ve done a few times in the past in aid to try and help others, but alongside that also help myself.
anyway, i very much appreciate the honesty and depth of your reply and hope to get a reply again possibly with anymore advice you feel you have. i myself, feel that i should be patient as pain, grief, struggle, street etc.. will come at the right time. i have developed rapidly as a person this year and maybe this is a little break just as we come out of 2016 and into 2017? who knows?