If I’m reading you post correctly you’re an intuitive introvert and a bit of a dreamer. Living more in your head then in the material world?

In an overly extroverted world qualities such as introversion and dreamer can be experienced as being at odds with everyone made worse as we imagine that everyone else’s life is so much bigger than our own.

Sometimes to get out of a cycle you have to fully enter it. Like getting caught in an undertow while swimming you can struggle or let go and let it run its course as you keep your eyes open for the moment to start swimming again.

Instead of fighting the qualities that are part of your authentic self my advice is to learn how to accept them. Once you accept them you will better understand how they are influencing your experiences and then what you need to do to grow.

Recommend: Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Can’t Stop Talking by Susan Cain