Dear Russ

Sorry to see you so upset. Please read through the entire thing I wrote which was “at the right place with a little bit of effort” – you focused more on the area where you wanted to which was your lack of ease and feeling of despair over it.

When I said right place, I not only meant the right setting but also your own state of mind. When I said little bit of effort, I meant the part where you go beyond your past insecurities and nudge them towards association by regular contact. But for this, you yourself need to be in a calmner state of mind or in the other words, the right place of mind.

Have you ever learnt to like your own company though? Can you sit in a room alone without going crazy?

Your mind at the moment is focused on your anxieties and failures. The money worries you, the past worries you, so does the future. The lack of friends is another area that you are taking personally as some deficiency in you.

Work on your own state of mind Russ. There is a lot of work to be done there. Take baby steps, write down whatever you have found helpful here.

I apologize for not being able to share the excel. My laptop did come back but as I feared they had formatted my drives and I lost all my files.

Regards
Nina