I have never met anyone of the opposite sex. I have been single since birth due to the hypopituitarism which has blighted my life.

I don’t feel special. My life is falling apart and I’m about to lose my much-needed disability benefits. I don’t know what I am going to do and I don’t see a happy future in store for myself. All this spiritual stuff seems like a sick joke in comparison. God could choose to make me healthy so I could stand on my own two feet in an increasingly difficult and hostile world. But instead I get these strange experiences that don’t seem to make much sense to me, let alone anyone else. Yes, I was able to correctly predict the name of a man I had never met before. So f*cking what? How is that of any use to me or anyone else?

Speaking of church, my church life is over. I am quitting after tomorrow and I feel quite pleased about it. Church has long since ceased being of any spiritual value to me.

Incidentally, the Star of David refers to King David of Israel, not St David of Wales.

Best wishes,
Tannhauser