No apologies required. It can be very helpful to write what were thinking and feeling without restraint or judgments.

Actually writing without making judgments about it might be a good practice for you.
One your done you could go over what you have written and look for the ways in which you have ‘measured’ and labeled your experiences.

Ask yourself
Where are these labels coming from? How helpful are they?
Where am I looking for validation? why/
How are you measuring your experiences? How accurate are these measurements? (Studies show that as a whole most people are really really bad at measuring our experiences!)