Yes, all for the family. I value family so much.

YES! You got it. I feel like a failure when people are still sad. Like I can somehow help them. Or should help them (even though I know that it is pretty much impossible). Or I have no right to be so lucky if they are born into a difficult situation. So that’s why I became mentally drained after my volunteer stint. I felt like a failure the whole time because nothing I could do could help enough. And then I felt like an extra failure for allowing it to get me so unhealthy physically and mentally (because health is my thing!). To answer your last question, because it is never enough. I need to help more (but in some situations of great pain, I cannot function). So I am too weak to do some of the things that can help the most. For example, I could never be a therapist because I don’t have the skills to separate myself from feeling the pain of others. Or I can’t work in social service settings because they don’t make me feel good about myself (for helping) they make me feel terrible for the person suffering.