It’s like i want her back.. But when i imagine that if that gets achieved, it would not necessarily make me happier.
It’s just that i miss her presence, even if it’s bothersome.
I will be getting used to it, i guess, but i still highly not tolerate clubs, especially after this experience.

Whoever goes out to those places would be sorta wicked.
Call me judgemental, but fun can be seeked elsewhere. It’s whether she lacked self esteem or she wanted to wander a little, which is insulting, but she still claims being faithful.

One more thing.
Is it permissible for any of your girlfriends to swim somewhere at night with her cousin along with other people who intend a so called event? I feel sick just visualising things, but at a certain extent, i blame myself.
Personally, it feels rational when i regard this as immoral but how do others view it? I believe that i have a sane set of morals what do you call that kind of conduct?

I did let many things pass and everytime i had to speak out, when i utterly had enough, she acted like i was overreacting and that i’m close minded for not letting her do anything, while i seriously withstood alot of “shit”