Bad feelings are worse than a lifeless mechanical state. The experience of bad feelings is not a beautiful life-filling experience for me. When I have no feelings at all, then I would be having a lifeless mechanical experience. So, without my good feelings, then the experience I would be having would either be a lifeless mechanical one or an experience that is worse than that.

It is not my perspective. This is what the experience truly is for me because I said before that there is a big difference between our perspectives (personal definitions) and what it is we are truly experiencing. Therefore, I was wondering if there was a way I could have a beautiful life-filling experience that is real. We can toss perspective out of the window because it is completely irrelevant here. What needs to be focused on here is the actual experience itself.