I’ve tried steps similar to that before and it never seems to stick. I’m too weak-willed to keep moving.

I’ve tried looking for a new job, and limiting myself to just one job application a day (and when that proved too much, one a week), but it fell apart because whenever I looked at a job I felt I couldn’t do it and didn’t bother. My friend convinced me to try a few minutes of meditation a day just to see if it would help, and I didn’t even last a week. The first few days were okay, but it just grew tiring.

Tried to publish a board game I made? Gave up because I didn’t even know where to start. Splitting it up into smaller tasks was impossible because I have no idea what those tasks would even be, nor how to find out. Family members told me long ago that I worry too much and overthink things and I don’t know how to stop. Someone said to do things without thinking about them and I wanted to scream because I don’t think I am physically capable of doing something without thinking about it.

I’m sorry. I ask for help, and people give it to me, but then I turn around a refuse to be helped. I’m really grateful that you’re trying and I can see you do a lot of work on this site, but … I don’t know. The only person that can really help me is me except I can’t even do that.