Hi Ben,
Very often (VERY often!) what we “want to do when we grow up” simply isn’t there anymore by the time we’ve graduated/arrived/made it. I’m an artist and several of my friends are professionals. I’m more talented on paper (literally) but some people simply have more luck/connections/business acumen. I, too, went into a depression.
What I’ve learned is (at least for me) is that you can get in trouble when we’re TOO attached to the idea of “Follow your Passion and the Money will Follow”. What can happen is when the money/job/career isn’t coming that actually kills our passion. Let your job be your job and view your gaming/art as a side job. For now! Advertise locally and get small jobs. Eventually the tide will turn and you will be in demand.
As for anxiety, try Running. I know, I know. But listen, I did interval training (walk/run, you can find plans online) and it was the most addictive thing I’ve ever done. I’m in great shape now, and LOOK great according to the “WOW!”s I’ve gotten. I sleep better too.
Good Luck,
Inky
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