I do know what you mean, because to some extent I can relate to that feeling too. Sometimes I just wish I was independent enough to live on my own (Im only 17). I know that it might seem to people that it’s just because Im a teenager but I have always felt this way about my family. I do love them and they mean everything to me and I know that they care for me too but in my opinion having a family is just very tiring. I too have to pretend to be someone else with my family because the moment I just get home I change and I dont know why.

I guess with me its because I dont like caring for people because that is the only way you can get hurt. When you see someone you love getting hurt you hurt even more and that is what I find very hard to cope with. I want to isolate myself from everyone and have a life where I wouldnt have to care for anyone and just be myself for myself. I want a new life where I’m not tied back to anyone or anything and I can just do what I feel I want to do. Maybe it’s the same with you…