Thanks, Anita, I actually posted my response because I wanted WildOceanflower to know that there is someone out there like me who can relate. Although, I never met this man in person, I too, envisioned everything with him..marriage, children. I know I shouldn’t have, and like WildOceanflower, there is not a day that goes by where I don’t think about him. My life too, is at a standstill. I had a great life when I met him, then after things were broken off, my life went downhill. I got into a bad car accident. Totalled my beautiful car, for evicted from my three bedroom apartment, now I live in HUD housing, in a small town. Most of my friends have abandoned me.

My father just passed and the last of my family, my 1/2 sister passed last year. I feel lonely, empty, like there is nothing left for me. I am in intensive therapy for all of this and 12 step programs, that are helping. One is for Trauma for now and my neglectful childhood and the other is co-dependent anonymous. Anyway, your posts and advice has been helping me alot and I am rooting for you WildOceanflower. Stay strong. We can do this. Again, I apologize, If I interrupted anything. I am new on here.