anita,

Thank you again for your contributions.  I took a lot of time expressing myself through typing as, once I started, more and more bubbled up.  Some of it is personal and I am not quite comfortable sharing it publicly on these forums.  If you are comfortable, you can e-mail me at godspdst @ gmail . com (without the spaces) and we can continue our discussion.  If you are not, I’ll write a shorter, less personal reply here.  Either way is fine.

steph